I Tried…..

                                                                        BY: Keith H. Seymour

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                                   I Tried, I really did.

                                          I Tried...to be what you wanted

                                                        Me to be,

                                                        But…. I failed.

                                          So, I tried again!

                                             Really! I did!

                                          Only, this time.. I tried to be me.

                                             Or what I thought was what

                                                         I thought

                                                   Was… is… me

                                                              But

                                         That was not good enough either.

                                         Not for you… Not even for me.

                                                        How Pathetic!

                                         I cannot even be… what I want to be!

                                        I even tried to combine and be…

                                        A little of what we both want,

                                                           But still

                                                           I failed.

                                       I know why I failed too,

                    I became wanted not only what I wanted, but what you wanted too.

                           My compromise made me a house divided within myself.

                               I cannot serve two masters and have you respect me

                                                 When I am not sure,

                    No! Scared, of who am becoming, of if that is what I want to be.

                                                 I tried! I really did!

                        This inner conflict has me more afraid of my inner-security

                                                  Than it does of you.

   I tried, I really tried

                                     To please individually, and collectively

                                                    Both me and you.

                                                      So, now I ask:

                                                 What now do I do?

                                             Yes! I really, really tried!