THE LAUGHTER IN MY SLEEP
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BY: Keith H.
Seymour
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Last night,
I was oddly awakened-
by...laughter.
The laughing voice...so distinct
that I realized …
IT was...mine.
Yes,
I accidentally thought of you,
which caused me
to spontaneously laugh...
during my sleep.
After all,
it seemed so absurd
that
years of friendship
could possibly become
something more.
So,
under the circumstances,
I couldn't help
laughing in my sleep.
That some sobering spirit
should cause me to unwittingly...
profess my love, and ask for yours in return.
Then learn that I only
might
get it.
You say that you think
you may feel
the same undying love for me?
But need time...
to find out for sure?!
Which means
you may find out
that...
you don't love me-
eventually.
What a terribly ironic joke.
So, I laughed...during my sleep.
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I am sure God laughed too.
Only, HIS laugh
was likely louder.
For, I merely asked for
a stress free love.
Yet, HIS answer
was...you!
Then I find out that should these feelings
mutually exist,
we might...only
be able to express them from afar.
Meaning,
the prospect of your continuing love
I may eventually lose.
This thought
causes me to laugh
at
myself.
Awake---and in my sleep.
I laugh
at... how
I foolishly admitted
that
“I love you!”
Then again,
for regretting my revelation
to you.
Yes, as I slept...
God probably laughed too.
With me? At me?
I'm not sure which.
All I really know... is that HE knows
that you know...that
“ I truly love you!”
Also, unlike us... HE
presently
knows
your...heart.
Except, HE won't tell me.
No.
HE has left that task
to... YOU!
I guess... the joke is not on me.
The joke...is me.
So, I laughed,
I laughed within... my...sleep.
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Oh... if I had already been
“conscious”
of how happy you make me feel,
even when we're apart.
Even when I'm asleep.
Maybe, I'd have been happier
sooner, and consciously laughed aloud
and with greater frequency
Then again...
Maybe not.
Anyway,
what a waste!
Such a loss of
potential laughter.
Oh, how extremely sad.
Yes, our lives may soon depart from one another,
and then... we may or may not find
that
time will heal
any newly discovered feelings
into... at least...one set of
open-heart
wounds.
Such good... or not so good fortune
laughs at me, as I become aware of this newly realized
love.
So, I happily think of you,
while I also laugh... as I sleep.
Last night I thought of you,
and awoke
to my own laughter
of irony.
Yes, I really did.
Maybe we will never know
if my timing's too late,
or if a future romance
we will at some point obtain.
But we already know
our friendship will still forever remain...
or so we think.
This I guess,
is why I laugh
when I think of you.
Even... when I'm asleep.
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